I'm starving!

Fish and I just moved into our new apartment a couple weeks before Thanksgiving. The stove/oven hasn't worked since we moved in. They replaced a part about 2 weeks ago and it didn't fix it. So they ordered a second part and told us it would be in and replaced within a week. Well, that hasn't happened yet. So I've not been able to make ANY food.

I'm so tired of microwaved meals, fast food, and pizza ordered in.. it's driving me CRAZY!!

And Fish refuses to go out to a restaurant because he's too tired. But insists on asking me what we have to eat!

GRR!

I'm so hungry and so annoyed.
I think I need to go to bed.

Sometimes I wonder..

what my life would be like right now if I had a 3 month old.

A few days before Christmas last year I found out I was pregnant. I was on birth control so it was extremely unexpected. However, after the initial shock, I was VERY excited. I ended up having a miscarriage in January. I was about a month and a half along. I never in a million years expected that it would have such an effect on me. It was such a new pregnancy and wasn't planned and I didn't even have insurance at the time. I guess I felt like I didn't have any reason to be upset. How crazy of me! I was absolutely devastated. I cried for weeks! I couldn't be around anyone. And what made it even worse was that 2 of my cousins and 2 friends were all pregnant as well. And we were all due around the same time. As happy as I was for them, every time I saw them I hurt so much inside.

It's been almost a year since then but it still gets to me. Especially when I start thinking about how crazy my day has been and how much I haven't gotten accomplished, I imagine how much crazier it would be with an infant in the house.

This morning (or afternoon, I should say) I was awakened by the neighbor's baby (we live in an apartment) crying. He was so loud I could hear him through the walls! And strangely enough it just put me in such a good mood. I have always loved kids. I always feel so much more at ease when I'm around them. Even if they're crying.

I listened to this song about 50 times daily when I was going through the miscarriage. It made me cry like a baby. But it also made me feel so much better.



I was due in September and have wanted a piece of Sapphire jewelry since I found out I was pregnant. haha! But even more so once I had the miscarriage. The only people I told were my boyfriend and my mom. So to have a piece of jewelry that I could wear to remember our little angel baby without having to have everyone else know would mean so much! I've been looking non stop but could never find something that "said" what I wanted it to. Last week as I was looking for Xmas presents I came across this:





I absolutely LOVE it! It's beautiful and it's a tear drop. How perfect. I can't wait to get it!!



Alright, time to go Christmas shopping! Thankfully, I only have a few things left to get.

*waves*

So, I'm new to this whole blogging thing. I found myself becoming addicted to everyone else's so I figured I should contribute also.

I suppose I'll start with the boring stuff..

My name's Ricki, I'm 22, and I live in Northern Virginia with my boyfriend and our furbaby. Fish (using this as a nickname, obviously) and I have been together since May of 2006. Six months into our relationship I moved into his apartment. Four months later he got transferred. So we packed up and moved.. 2 hours away from all of our friends and family. Seven months after that he was transferred yet again. This time we moved another hour further north. We are right outside of DC now. We love the area but aren't too fond of being 3 hours away from everyone we love.

We both work retail. He's a store manager for an electronics store and I'm in merchandising at a home improvements store. Needless to say, we don't get to see each other very often. He works extremely long days. Especially during the holidays. Even with our precious furbaby it tends to get very lonely around the house. To keep myself from going crazy I try to travel the 3 hours to see my family and friends every other weekend. Unfortunately, lack of money makes that not possible alot of the time.

Well, I think that's a pretty good overview. At least for now.
:)