Thursday, February 5, 2009

Twenty Five.

I did this on Facebook but figured I'd post it here in case someone else was bored.

Here's the deal.
I write 25 things about me.
I tag you.
You write 25 things about you.
You tag people.  

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1. I love bright colors. Blue, Green, Pink, and Orange. Neon style. They make me happy.  

2. I hate talking on the phone so much that I will go weeks without talking to family or friends. And it drives me crazy.  

3. I have a highly addictive personality. But my addictions change regularly. Right now they're Now and Laters, Diet Dr. Pepper, and The Bachelor.  

4. I'm also addicted to Blogs. I don't see this one changing anytime soon though. I could sit for hours and just read people's blogs.  

5. I actually LOVE to cook/bake. The reason I don't do it very often is because I hate the mess it creates.  

6. I hate doing anything that I feel needs to be done. And I also hate doing things that I'm told to do. I like to do things on my own time.  

7. Dusting is my all time LEAST favorite chore. I am embarrassed to admit that I honestly can't remember the last time, outside of work, that I did it.  

8. I haven't actually been, or felt like, myself since Jessy died. I can't decide if it's because I'm afraid of losing someone else or if I've really just changed.  

9. I'm terrified of stepping out of my comfort zone. But I think I've finally realized that it's necessary.  

10. My greatest fear, despite whatever I've said in the past, is not having my dad walk me down the aisle or meet my kids.  

11. I made a timeline of my life when I was very young. It said that I’d be married by 21 and have my first baby by 23. Until my 21st year passed by I still believed my “perfect world” would come true.  

12. Since I was 12 my dream job has been to be a stay at home mom. And just for the record, I don't think a stay at home mom's job should only be to take care of the kids. She should make sure the house stays clean, the laundry is done, and dinner is ready when her husband gets home. After working all day he should be able to come home and just relax.  

13. Second to being a stay at home mom, my dream job would be a nurse in the Neo-Natal Intensive Care Unit. I learned about them while watching a medical show with my mom when I was really young and I’ve dreamed about it since. But I don’t have the money or patience to go to school for it.  

14. I really do consider our puppy, Tripper, our "son." I mean, with all the toys strewn across our living room floor you’d think we had a toddler anyway. Plus, I've cleaned up various bodily fluids (something I said I've never do), stayed in and out of doctor's offices and pet ER's because he was such a sickly baby, and made sure he had food even if I couldn't afford my own! (The last one, of course, is an exaggeration but you get the point.)  

15. I am very easily influenced. It's not a good thing. But, just like my chronic procrastination, I don't think there's a cure.  

16. I would much rather make memories with great friends and family than make money. For someone with not much money to begin with it gets me in trouble sometimes.  

17. I pretty much feel like I’ve done nothing with my life. I’d really love to do something that would make someone proud of me.  
18. I absolutely can NOT stand the smell of bread or cheese. But I could eat both every day of my life (all day) and not get sick of them.  

19. I really REALLY miss going to the gym. But I have no one to go with and I’m way too self conscious and insecure to go by myself.  

20. I always talk about how much I love sleep. And everybody knows it’s almost impossible for me to stay awake through an entire movie. But really, it has such an impact on my day to day life that I think it may be something more serious. I think I should get it checked out..  

21. I have this weird fascination with death. I love reading about anything even related to it. And no, it’s not because I’m suicidal or anything crazy like that. I just find it really interesting.  

22. I’m so indecisive that most of the time I can’t even answer simple “What’s your favorite [color, food, song, etc.]” questions.  
23. I unofficially collect blankets and pajama pants. You can never have enough of either one. I think I’m probably up to 50 of each. I love love love them!  

24. Thanks to the show Unsolved Mysteries ( you know you remember it! ) and a creepy neighbor peering into my window when I was younger, I am now extremely paranoid. I hate being in the house alone. When I take a shower the front door is locked, the bedroom door is locked, and the bathroom door is locked. And I definitely can’t sleep if I’m the only one in the house. Even with all the doors locked every little noise creeps me out.  

25. I think I’ve developed ADD recently. It took me 2 days to complete this damn thing because I kept getting distracted and moving on to other things. Annoying!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

By the way.

I'm also addicted to this.




It's the only diet soda that I think actually tastes like regular.
And duh, it's ZERO calories!!

I mean, really. How much better could it get?

Obsess much?

So.
I'm completely addicted to reality shows.
Like, ALL of them.

But the Bachelor is definitely my favorite right now.
Jason is extremely sexy. And Ty is the cutest little guy I've ever seen!

Here are my opinions - 
I think the last 2 will be Molly and Melissa.
I think Melissa is SO perfect for him. I looove them together.
Him and Molly just seem to be so comfortable together. Like they could just talk for hours. I think they're really cute together but I just don't see the same thing I see when he's with Melissa.
Jillian is just boring to me. I don't see anything special there at all.
And I don't think Naomi is ready to settle down and start a family.
I really liked Stephanie but I think he made the right choice sending her home. I don't feel like they had much in common other than that they were both single parents.

I can't wait to see who he ends up with!
But I don't want the show to end! lol.

Well, I'm gonna go watch Biggest Loser now.
Haha. Told you I was obsessed.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Pigs are flying.

So I've started updating this thing about 50 times already.
Only to erase it and start again.
Or to get distracted and forget about it.

Alot has happened since the last post.
Our holidays were great.
I finished up management training at work.
I met my new (BEAUTIFUL) baby cousin.
And Fish found out that by the end of March he'll be out of a job.

Now, at first, this was really upsetting.
We had known for awhile that it was coming.
(He's a store manager at Circuit City)
So that part wasn't hard.
I have no doubt that he'll be able to find another job.
I'm sure it won't pay as much but we lived on less before.
So even that's not really an issue.
The thing that bummed me out so much was the actual fact that Circuit City would no longer be around.
It has truly been such a huge part of my life since 2003.
It was my first real job.
I met so many amazing people.
(including Fish)
I learned so much about work ethic, relationships, and even myself.
I guess I just felt like all of that would kind of disappear along with the stores themselves.

But I've pretty much gotten over all of that.
It still really sucks.
But what can you do?


In other news.

I just found out that a friend (more of an acquaintance, really) is pregnant.
Now, don't get me wrong, I'm happy for her. And I wish her and her husband nothing but the best.
But it just freakin sucks.
I feel like my life, OUR life, will never start.
She's been with this guy not even half the time that me and Fish have been together and they're married AND pregnant already.
It's just not fair.
*sigh*

I watched PS, I Love You today though.
I've been wanting to watch it since I first saw the previews for it.
It was kinda depressing but it actually made me realize that I would be just fine by myself.
(Not that I want to be)
Which kind of just put me at ease with the whole situation.
I really have no idea how or why though.
All I know is that I'm okay right now.
It could be the weather though.
It's been 50 here today and I've had all the windows open.
That always puts me in a good mood.
I can't wait for Spring to just hurry up and get here so we can have that weather EVERYday.